This dream has been lingering out there for about six years; hovering, waiting for me to acknowledge it. Until one day, it came to the forefront again and I talked to my spouse about it. We both agreed it was time to acknowledge this dream, because it was one we shared. We both desired to move away from home, to live somewhere that offered more access to nature, more options for outdoor activities.
Once we agreed that the timing was right, we started taking actions toward our dream right away and we stood in amazement as things very quickly began to fall into place. The journey has been both exciting and terrifying. There have been moments where it seems everything is progressing exactly as we hoped. And there have been moments where it feels like nothing is as we wanted it to be. Even though this transition has required a lot of effort from us, at the same time it has been effortless. When you know what you want and you take steps to follow that dream, then even in the hard times, you know that you need to keep going, no matter what. You trust that in the long run, things will work out exactly as they are meant to be. Many times, I got caught up in the whirlwind of activity and let the momentum carry me along. Other times, I wanted desperately to stomp on the brakes, hide under my bed and wish everything away. No matter what I was feeling, I kept going.
And now here we are, in our new home state of Colorado. I’ve been reflecting on how my priorities have been shifting over the last few months. The original plan was to get our daughter into a new daycare facility right away so I could refocus on my business, to keep it moving and not lose momentum. But as we were in the midst of the transition, my heart was whispering: “You need to focus on your family first. You need to help your daughter settle in. You need to be there for her through the transition.” In my past, I’ve always put my work first – before any relationship. So when my heart started whispering about a new priority, it was a sign that things were shifting internally. It was very critical that I pay attention, and we agreed to change the plan.
So I didn’t work for almost three full months during the whole move process. This was a hard transition for me at first, to play stay-at-home mom, to not work. I had to wrestle with my ego, which was shouting at me the whole time about how much I’d regret putting my work on hold. But my soul kept reminding me that kindergarten was fast approaching and I’d never again have this opportunity to spend so much time with my daughter. So I adjusted, I responded to the needs of the situation and to the needs of my family. I shifted my perspective and saw the time with my daughter for what it was - a precious gift - rather than viewing it as a distraction from my work.
It would have been very easy to let our fears and doubts hold us back. To play it safe. To bask in familiarity and comfortable-ness. But we decided to take the chance, to make the change.
We’re settling in. We’re finding our way around. We’re finally starting to get out and enjoy all that our new home state has to offer. We miss our family and our friends, and we’re excited about the possibilities of a different future for our family. To be continued….
In the meantime, what dreams have you put on hold? Is it time to take a fresh look at what you want? How do you want your life to be? What new priorities are emerging for you?